Seeking peace

My silence here on the blog last Monday said more than any words of mine could have. It was a terrible week in the UK. Probably the worst week of my life, even when compared to the very young death of my father and the deaths of my beloved grandparents some years later. I was in agony last week. I couldn’t talk.

With a tiny number of dignified exceptions (Nicola Sturgeon, Caroline Lucas, Jeremy Corbyn) our national politicians embraced the don’t want to adult meme.

They’re inadequate, and so are we. We’ve spent decades putting them in power and rewarding them for abusing it.

The infantile behaviour in Westminster continues. So does the raw racist hatred and violence on the streets of England and Wales, the scapegoating of our most vulnerable people, the villifying of our innocent neighbours, the reckless endangering of peace in Europe, and the deliberate ignoring of the awful plight of war refugees when there are more displaced people on the move now than at any time since the end of the second world war.

I couldn’t talk. Sometimes I felt like a small black hole of despair. Other times, like a simmering volcano.

My twitter feed exploded with distress, anger, fear, and analysis. Naturally. Like many people, I expect, I tend to follow and be followed on there by people with whom I’m in broad agreement on political matters.

Much of the analysis and comment was intelligent and right on the button, even amusing…

…but for most of the week I couldn’t engage.

By Friday, I was here:

Yesterday morning, I made it to my local Quaker meeting. And that’s where it all started falling into place for me. My silence, or, rather, my inability to talk for several days. As I sank into the cherished deep silence of the meeting, I felt I’d been unconsciously preparing for it all week.

Peace filled me.

I don’t have any answers for our country or our continent. I certainly don’t pretend to have any answers for individual people. But for me, I will continue to seek and live that peace.

Yesterday evening I stood out on our front patio and took this photo. peace and lightCaptioned it: the evening side of our valley, from the morning side.

It isn’t a great photo, but there is light. There is peace.

Brexit isn’t a great situation, but I’m not going to fall apart. My inner peace will hold me together.

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11 Responses to Seeking peace

  1. Margaret says:

    Hugs. I hope the peace you seek spreads out and covers the land like the light in your picture.

  2. Val Finnegan says:

    I am feeling the same way David. It’s taken me a week & half to get here, get some kind of peace.

    I’m glad you are coming to terms to where we are. I think you have enough to deal with on a day to day basis as it is.

    Sending hugs & hoping for peace & common sense to rule. My best wishes to you. xx

  3. Nelma says:

    I stayed up awake the whole night with a big dose of trust in good results, but at 4:30 I knew for sure the Brexit voters had won and it left also me speechless behind. But even more I felt so disappointed for my English friends that they are ruled by hatreds, fear and stupidity of many conservative voters. But still, I understand the feelings of many Brits who are suffering under poverty and unemployment. Alas, at this moment they still are betrayed bij their politici. There is nothing changed for them. Their life will become only harder and more difficult the coming months or maybe years, I assume.

    However, time will tell and also time heals all wounds. And with time comes reason and understanding. And peace of mind. ๐Ÿ™‚

    I still love my English friends, and you, my oldest friend. ๐Ÿ™‚

    • David Bridger says:

      Ah, Nelma, my dear old friend. Thank you for staying up to hold vigil with us on that heartbreaking night, and thank you for standing with us still.

      Love and peace to you. ๐Ÿ™‚

  4. I so understand your need to seek peace. I am not in the UK, but what is happening here in the US defies any rational explanation and I’m deeply concerned…and so I wish us both the peace we seek.

    I love the photograph. I makes me feel hopeful.

    Many hugs to you and those you love.

    • David Bridger says:

      Thank you, Keriann. I understand your situation over there and join you in wishing us both peace. And all our loved ones.

      Hugs for you too.

  5. Ashe Elton Parker says:

    *hugs* I was awake here in the US for the Brexit results and was appalled how it went; it left me terrified for November. I can completely understand how that could have caused a silence on your part. I’m glad you were able to find peace among your fellow Quakers. In troubling times, we all must seek refuge and find peace wherever we can.

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